"I tried to nap but now my head was alive, was a toddler in a room full of new guests. It jumped and squealed and threw the books off the shelves ... My mind, I know, I can prove, hovers on hummingbird wings. It hovers and churns. And when it's operating at full thrust, the churning does not stop. The machines do not rest, the systems rarely cool. And while I can forget anything of any importance -- this is why people tell me secrets -- my mind has an uncanny knack for organization when it comes to pain. Nothing tormenting is lost, never even diminished in color or intensity or quality of sound. These were filed near the front."