8/8/2011

 

grandpama

 

I can’t think of my grandfather without thinking of the aAmadeus and all his bullshit
I can’t think of tiff without thinking of the time she saw me off to Germany
I can’t think of my brother without thinking of my mother, and I can’t think of my mother without thinking of my grandfather
I can’t think of the army without thinking of private school and the fact that everyone wears the same close yet we are all different.
I can’t think of private school without thinking of money, or my mom, or my grandfather and my brother who was somehow separated like ripples on and ocean.
And when I look at the moon, I don’t see what you see; I see something that is new and big before you know it exists because I am ahead of you like Russia.
And when I reach down to kiss you, know all the latitudes and in my head and all the satellites of me.


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