9/30/2016

 

giving up ghost

 

Just the other night I woke up after a dream about kim leaving me… she was into something else, someone else, and I had all this love to give that was boomeranging around my mind. we still had our kids…

In the fresh Louisiana morning it seemed clear… why did I feel this way?

My mother and Meagan. For the first time I realized that they weren’t leaving me, they were never leaving me, it wasn’t me, it was them

It changed everything on how I look at everything

Fangela, look at me. You got to move.

It wasn’t that they never loved me, it wasn’t that they never cared for me, like shadows on the wall, it was them.

I never wanted and average girl now that I think about it, I was always looking for a sane girl

Giving up the crazy, giving up the ghost