Everything I think about is this moment, where all the histories collide, my kids, my smile, my mom, dad, step dad, sisters, step sisters on a lawn

Perhaps its Jim’s lawn

My mother’s shuffle of assorted beverages and eats
My father’s talk of shipping history
Jim of fishing and firefighters
Slow bubbling moments of me talking about Belgium and Andy, Gavin… 911

My kids now, Finn and Reilly, my sister Erin now, my sister Laura now… Carter

The things that they will never see